The Midnight Ramblings of an Insomniac.

Here goes another night with little to no sleep. I'm beginning to wonder what's going on. Have I reset my internal clock? or is there something really wrong with me? (don't answer that) I am even beginning to envy the Chiiq. The Chiiq is our 4yr old Shih'Tzu. If sleeping were a sport... she'd be an Olympic level competitor. She can sleep any time, any place and in any position. She sleeps on her back, on my back, on her side, and has even been known to cover her head with what ever article of clothing has fallen out of the laundry basket to block out the light. At the moment she is asleep in my work room, blissfully unaware of my insomnia. She looks so peaceful when she sleeps. I do love it when she starts to dream. Her little paws start wiggling and she makes the funniest little noise. It sounds like "bwooop, bwooop, bwooop" and it makes me giggle everytime she does it. This year she started howling in her sleep and she always wakes up startled afterwards. Then she falls asleep immediately after. If only I could accomplish the same thing. The lack of sleep is beginning to affect my memory, ability to focus and I keep feeling like I'm coming down with a cold. A few nights ago I tried beading until I got sleepy. The only thing I accomplished was to drop more beads than I strung. At that point I thought I was ready to sleep... no such luck there. Earlier today I almost fell out of a chair in the kitchen. I started to doze off while eating a sandwich. So, I went to bed and then couldn't sleep. This evening, out of desperation, I took a sleeping pill. As you can see, it isn't working. I slept soundly for 2hours and now my mind is racing once more. It is now 1:20am and here I am rambling like an idiot. To top it all off, my eyelid is twitching again!! This has  been going on for about a week or more. Apparently it is a result of eyestrain, lack of sleep, stress, and too much caffeine. And guess what... all four of those apply to me. Yes, I know I need to cut out the caffeine, but that's the only way I can stay awake during the day. Most nights I wait until my eyes are tearing from the constant yawning. But then, I get into bed and I am wide awake. The car seems to be the only place I can sleep. Something about the hum of the motor and the a/c that just knocks me out. No worries, hubby is always the one driving. I'm thinking that perhaps we need a long road trip so I can get a decent "night's" sleep. But, that's not gonna happen. Today, I even considered laying on the floor next to my monster, to see if I might get some rest too. It didn't work. It's now almost 2am and my eyelids are starting to get heavy and I feel myself tipping out of my chair once more. Perhaps it's time to try again. Hopefully my body will decide it's had enough and will demand rest soon. If not, then this will be my days and nights.. wide awake and half asleep.